I finally figured out why I couldn’t seem to reconcile how my gender could be simultaneously pangender and “me”. Because it’s not. It’s really “other”. Not only does that make perfect sense to me, I’m at peace about it. I learned long ago that when I’m at peace about something like that, that means it’s the truth.
“Me” is a gender, to me at least. It comes under the “other” category. I can’t tell you how good this feels. I was really starting to doubt everything about myself for a little while.
Now the question I need to examine is in those rare times when I’m asked what my gender is and they accept more than just male and female, what do I put? I’m thinking that would depend largely on the situation. In my profile at Crossdresser Heaven I’ll probably change it to other. For something like Yahoo I’ll probably keep it “not disclosed”. But there’s time to think about it. (“Time Enough At Last”?)